25 April, 2013

A Declaration

Monday, April 22, 2013
This is my declaration- of sorts.

The last few weeks I have really desired a family- of my own. A husband, maybe a few kids, you know. This isn’t the only time I have felt this way; it just seemed to come up a lot more this last month. It’s like it was staring me in the face- almost taunting me- reminding me that I’m single and I have not yet found the person with whom I’m supposed to share my life with.

I know I’m only 21, young and “have my whole life ahead of me”. It doesn’t make the waiting any easier.

Back to my declaration-

In this season of my life, I am choosing to be content with being single. I am choosing to be happy and happy for others who are in a different season of life.

I am choosing to lay down this “right” of having a boyfriend and completely give it to God.

  Completely being defined as:

-every day telling God, “I’m yours, my heart is yours, my dreams and desires are yours, I trust you. I know you “have it” and I don’t have to worry about anything.”

-taking my thoughts “captive”. Meaning, when a thought about a guy/potential husband comes to mind, I will stop and give it to God. Telling him again (reminding myself) that I am his and I trust him, he’s got it.

-surrendering my ideas of what my future husband should look like, act like, dress like, smell like, etc. (Haha, no worries I’m not that particular- then again, some of my friends may beg to differ).

I am choosing to enjoy life and get the most out of it that I can.

I am choosing to be and become the woman God has created me to be.

I am choosing to follow God’s voice, doing all that he asks me to do- including the little things.

I am choosing to be “all there” wherever I am; doing everything with excellence, joy, and purpose.

I am choosing to put my focus on Christ. It is for him that I live and serve and love. For HIM alone.

I realize these are a lot of “not so easy” choices- ones that will take deliberate action and thought. I know it won’t be easy. I also know that I won’t get everything right. I will mess up, I will make mistakes, I will fail a few times. However, I will pick myself back up again- or in all actuality-  let God pick me up, set me back on my feet and remind me,

            “I’ve got you. We can do this. I love you. Stay focused on all that I have for you here and now. Trust me. I’ve got your future. I’ve got your heart, dreams, and desires. I have not forgotten them. I have not forgotten you.”

 I choose to be wise with how I spend my time. (yeah, this last one seems “out of place” but it’s gotta go in here somewhere!)

 This is my declaration.

 Brittaney